Author: L.U. Ann
Series: Destructive #2
Published by Self-Published
Release Date January 5, 2014
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If the decisions you make don’t define you, what price would you pay to change them?
“Close your eyes. This is the darkness I see, I feel, I live because of my choices."
I spent my life running. Running from my past. A past that changed my life, robbed me of my childhood, and bound me for a life of silence. Silence protected me from further hurt. When I couldn't control my life, I found reprieve in my silence. Dark, cold silence. I’m trapped, trying to find my way out, trying to make a stand, trying to finally live; but is it too late?
Lacey Edwards fought emotional turmoil most of her life. She made choices that unknowingly put her through more painstaking heartache. She found bits and pieces of happiness in all the wrong areas except for one. This one gave her hope for a fresh new life full of promises. Could she hold onto it, or would it slip through her fingertips?
“What? You’ve been here before?” I ask, watching him chuckle to himself as he reaches for my hand because I’m too stunned to occupy his outstretched offering. How come I’m just now finding out about it?
Shaking his head he says, “Come here. There are some pretty cool things I want to show you.” Standing, he takes my hand, never letting go. “This is the ‘Seaview Cottage,’ it’s the only cottage on the property. There are over a hundred rooms, an indoor swimming pool, hot tub and fitness room in the main building. There are around 40 secluded rooms in the smaller building, and a heated outdoor pool installed in 2011 sits about 100 yards from the ocean.” I’m looking at him in awe. Clearly, he has been here before. He had to, but wow he remembers a ton of stuff. “Let me show you the cottage. Careful, watch your step. I’m sorry we aren’t in the main building where you could experience all of the amenities, but I thought you would be more comfortable here, away from the tourists.”
I’ve always been silent not wanting to face the helpless child fighting for freedom. Freedom from herself. Praying to forget, sweeping my emotions under the rug, waiting for them to disappear one day.
What do you do when your world revolves around unwarranted guilt? Shouldering the pain of her world, Lacey sets forth to rebuild her life. When we last left her, she had naively decided to give Caine another chance. Side note; I don’t use naïve in a negative connotation. I use it with the knowledge that Lacey is so FULL of love to give, she sometimes blindly gives it to undeserving people. Case in point: Caine. Here is a man SO undeserving of all that she has to offer. She has given him her world, a child, her heart and soul, and it was never enough. As we were ending Destructive Silence, Lacey catches Caine cheating, ONCE AGAIN, and in the process of her world crumbling is run over by a car. And we fade to black…
Our movements flow like the waves of the ocean. I am the water, he is the moon. His gravitational pull is strong as it sends a strong current ripping through me after every departure.
Full warning: if you thought the first book was an emotional roller-coaster, grab a box of tissues and hold onto something tight because you haven’t seen anything yet! Not only is Lacey’s personal growth in this book breathtakingly staggering, but L.U. Ann’s literary growth is extremely apparent. There is a maturity in this book that sometimes wasn’t present in the last. I know a lot of that has to do with the ages of the characters, but it also comes from getting your feet wet. While I really like the last book, the issues I had all dealt with maturity. Looking past that, you had one hell of a gut-wrenching story, and it was the feelings that stood out. Through Lacey, L.U. has come into herself as a phenomenal author, and definitely one to keep your eyes on! Now that I have author loved, back to the story J
The feeling is intoxicating. I’m drunk on him. He’s like a drug and I’m freaking addicted.
As I stated earlier, Lacey is essentially rebuilding her life from page one. With the love of her son, and the love of a good man, she is finding out who she is and who she wants to be. To watch the choices she had to make, it brought many a tear to my eyes, like a proud momma. She is leaps and bounds away from where she was in the previous book. Though the future is uncertain, Lacey is optimistic. She goes through MANY struggles in this book; emotionally, physically, and mentally. Her sanity is truly tested, and the unknown provides over every decision. Throughout every turn, I was right there with her. Heart breaking, soul shattering, and life affirming moments run rampant and you will be left a different person long after the last page has been turned. This girl can shoulder guilt like no other I’ve ever read. If there is blame to be had, Lacey will take ownership of it. I just wanted to shake her, and then give her a hug.
“I loved you yesterday, I love you today and I will love you forever.”
One emotion resonated with me throughout this entire story, and that is hope. Unbridled, sometimes unfounded, yet nevertheless prevalent hope was always on the forefront. Hope to recover from the past, hope to make the right decisions for the future, and hope to just enjoy loving love and the present. Sometimes you never truly know a person, and that was never truthful than in this book. Truth. What a simple word, yet so complex. There are many hard truths revealed and realize in this book, some of which may be hard for some to stomach. But the fact of the matter is that they are HONEST truths and far more common a situation than many would choose to believe. What Lacey goes through by no means is singular only to her, but they are things that not only are hardly talked about, but looked down upon. I think knowing that the author not only has a special connection to the content, but actually LIVED it only helps readers to connect easier. Too often I think we get caught up in the fact that these are fictional characters, but many, if not most, of the situations they go through have some if not ALL basis on real life. Even if you personally didn’t go through this, many have. I think readers lose sight of that too much. We are all human, we all make mistakes, and we all have shit happen to us. No one can say with 100% certainty what they would do until they are actually in that situation. And to pass judgment on someone otherwise or in ANY case is just ludicrous. I think L.U. is to be commended for putting it all out there. Her raw emotions show and translate beautifully. Not all, but some stories can only be told by someone who has lived it. Destructive Choices is a testament to that!
No matter what happens, this is the truth of our love. I believe in this. This is my future, my only one.
Least you not go into this thinking it is ALL sad, one particular bright light I cannot and will not go into detail about. This you truly need to experience for yourself. It’s truly a beautiful thing. The love, the connection, your soul recognizing from the beginning what was always there. Believe me when I say that this book has it all! Cannot wait to see what L.U. Ann comes out with for us next. I very much look forward in anticipation of continuing the journey she has set forth for us. A journey of life, love, redemption, and relieving guilt.
20 Fun Facts:
20 Fun Facts you may not know about L.U. Ann
Rain drops on roses and whiskers on kittens may be your favorite things, but here are some of mine.
Favorite food: French fries!
I am a vegetarian. I don’t eat anything that has ever had eyeballs. J
Favorite drink: Coffee, I am a proud coffee snob. Growing up on Cuban coffee, I have a sensitive palette when it comes to my coffee.
Favorite movie: Pulp Fiction
Favorite destination: Anywhere there is water. This is the first year I’ve lived more than 150 miles away from the ocean.
Favorite way to relax: Um… I don’t. Reading is the closest thing to relaxing, but I’ve been found reading on my iPad in the grocery line, sitting in the car waiting for the bus, waiting for my daughter to perform her Christmas concert. Yes, I read everywhere. When I have a moment to relax, I choose something productive.
I wear flip-flops as much as possible. My motto, “Every day is a flip-flop day.”
I have a big heart for animals. I’ve been known to rescue many strays and spend lots of money on wildlife rehabilitation.
I have three dogs (Alfalfa, Darla and Louie), I have four cats (Fonzi, Maxi, Yogi and Bailey), I have a Sun Concure (Harry Husker), two guinea pigs (Daisy and Lily) and a French Lop Rabbit (Novella). Everyone thinks it’s funny
I am and always have been an active swimmer.
I coached aquatics and basketball for Special Olympics.
I have been known to sing at the top of my lungs in the car with my kids. They think I’m a great singer. Dare we tell them differently?
I am a HUGE Adam Levine fan. Hubby gave me a hall pass, so I’m sorry ladies… he’s mine.
I am an artist. Painting murals is my true love.
Shopping is a painful experience and one I try to avoid at all cost.
I love to garden, but I live in an arid climate right now where nothing grows but tumbleweeds.
My favorite color is black.
I may have a little OCD with light switches being in the off position when I go to bed. I may also have slight obsession with my alarm time.
My favorite date may include not only my husband but my children, instruments and Rock Band on the Wii.
I’ve had to learn a lot of state laws so that my daughter has the entitled education afforded to her. You will meet her in the third and final book of A Destructive Novel. Her nickname is Little Miss Sunshine. J
Melissa Benoist takes the role of Lacey Edwards
Lea Michele takes the role of Becca Fox
Darren Criss takes the role of Caine Rogers
Other Books in the Series
Destructive Silence ~ Book One
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If you never speak of the past, can it be erased?
Lacey Edwards has a past.
A past which changed her life forever.
A past she is desperate to forget.
Lacey is quiet and reserved compared to her best friend Becca Fox. They became instant friends when Lacey moved to Maryland nine years ago. Becca helped pull Lacey out of her internal shell to experience life. By high school, Lacey was active in the club scene and would occasionally have to drag Becca with her. One night, Lacey realized she might be able to run from her past with the help of Becca and one steamy Caine Rogers.
Lacey didn’t know, until it was too late, how feelings, honesty, heartbreak and life altering events can change a person. Lacey has Becca’s support but will that be enough?
Will Lacey sacrifice her own happiness to do what is expected?